23 pounds!!!!!

Since I started back on my program, I am down 23 pounds. Let's hope that they stay gone this time around. It's humiliating and exhausting to lose the same 20 pounds over and over and over. I plan to go down another 20, but I don't care if it takes awhile. I just want to make new healthy eating habits and slowly change FOREVER!!!!!

Back in control

Whew! I feel much better than I did a couple of days ago. I am back in control of myself. I am being a teeny bit neurotic, but I don't know how to actually lose weight without that neurosis. I'm a work in progress, I guess. I'm hoping that by Monday I am lower than my most recent lowest. (Did that make a lick of sense?)

Frustrating Week

Bah! This week was frustrating. I am so trying not to be neurotic, but I swung the pendulum too far to the other side this week and I gained weight and I feel too full. I'm thinking I may have to be a little neurotic this week for a few days to get myself back under control. This "changing" thing is so darn hard. I always want to revert back to my less than healthy habits.

So...... for the next two weeks, I am going to eat NO SUGAR. Not forever, just until we leave to go to AZ on the 14th. That is not even 2 weeks, it's a week and a half. It should be long enough to pull me back from eating something a little sweet everyday.

I'm trying to remember that I LOVE this!

Hello. My name is Michele and I am a food-a-holic.

I'm resurrecting this blog. I know no one actually reads it, but it is good for my sanity. So, here is the sad news. Once I quit dieting and blogging last time, I regained all 20 pounds I had lost plus 5.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Why Oh Why do I do things like that to myself? I am possibly the most food obsessed person I know. I LOVE to eat sweet delicious fattening food. I love to read about it, look at pictures of it, bake it, and eat it. Why? I don't know. It makes me feel good while I am doing it, but after I do it for so long that I get ginormous, I don't like it anymore.

So, a couple of months ago, my husband decided that he was going on Medifast. I thought, "That sounds easy. Just eat a bar or drink a shake. Nothing to think about. No decisions. Easy Peasy!"

Well, after a couple of weeks, I was dying. I am just not a processed food kind of girl (unless it is Twinkies). I could not get into the Medifast regimen. I was dying for real food (translate "bread/pasta/rice". But, I had lost 10 pounds, so I didn't want to mess that up.

I decided to go back to Weight Watchers. It's what I did last time I lost and I really really really like it. I just calculated how many points those little Medifast bars and drinks are and now I can use them in a pinch, but I can eat delicious, fresh, yummy stuff, too.

I am now down 21 pounds from my highest weight 2 months ago. The first 15 came off really fast, but this last 6 has required some patience on my part. I am trying to be patient. I am trying to look at this as a lifestyle change, not a diet. I want to be healthy and feel good and get thin all at the same time. I don't really care how long it takes me as long as my weight continues to move downward.

I don't know how often I will check in, but I'll try to be fairly regular.

ONWARD AND DOWNWARD!!!!!!!!!

My Downfall.......

These are my downfall! I know they are kid food and that they are disgusting and that I shouldn't love them, but I can't help myself. They are only available until Easter and they only cost 99 cents a carton and they are the only Easter candy I crave. Normal adults crave things like Cadbury eggs, but not me. I LOVE these marshmallow eggs! I ate an entire carton by myself this weekend. (I could have eaten 3 cartons, but luckily I only bought 1!) I am so glad that tomorrow is anther day. I will start fresh eating no sugar tomorrow morning.

I'm on Day 5 of no sugar today!!!!!!!!!

I will get through a full 7 day week. It has not been easy, but I have done it! (How sad is it that I'm celebrating not being an addict for 4 1/2 days :-)

Tuesday night I was at YW and they served ice-cream sundaes. I did not partake.

Wednesday night I was at RS and there was candy everywhere (DOVE!) and amazing red velvet cupcakes and I did not partake.

Last night, there were shortbread cookies out on the counter and I did not partake!

I rock!

TWO DAYS!!!!!! I have officially made it through two days with no sugar and I was sorely tempted! Monday night, I was in Walmart at 8:00 p.m. and I hadn't eaten dinner yet and I was starving and I SOOOOOOOOOOO almost bought a goodie, but I didn't! Hooray for me. Tonight, I was at Young Women with Brenna and they served ice cream sundaes and I was really thinking about eating one, BUT I DIDN'T!!!!!!! I am amazing, if I say so myself.

That is the good news. The bad news is that I have eaten too much dinner both nights and dinner has been too late, but that's okay because I DIDN'T EAT ANY SUGAR!!!!!!!

I walked on Monday and I'm walking tomorrow. This morning, I slept in. (Oops.)

I'm slowly slowly beginning to feel a little bit more under control. I know it is only two days, but I don't think I've actually gone a full 48 hours without sugar since before Christmas. (I know, I'm pathetic!)

This is how I feel right now. I have been eating and eating and eating and eating and eating. Up until this week, I was exercising everyday, so I was able to fool myself into thinking I was still doing okay, but this week I did not exercise ONCE!!! (Well, that is not actually true. I did go to TKD class on Saturday for one hour.) And today, I feel like a whale. A very very very full whale. But, that doesn't seem to stop me from eating. In fact, I am eating mini marshmallows as I write this post. Ack! I am totally and completely out of control.



This calls for desparate measures. Tomorrow I will start one week of NO SUGAR. I'm already crying thinking about it, but it is the only way I can get off this roller coaster. I will also get back on my regular exercise schedule. The good news is that for the past seven months, I have exercised regularly. Even though I messed up this week, for the most part, exercise is now a part of my life.

I am thankful for tomorrows! But tonight, I'm going to go find some chocolate. :-)

Blah!

I'm stuck. I don't want to eat right. I feel fat and lazy. I weighed this morning and I'm up 3 pounds from my lowest weight. I'm pretty good for breakfast and lunch and then for dinner, I eat whatever I want. It doesn't help that we have no kitchen right now because we are remodeling, so I can only use the microwave (or barbecue) to cook. Blech! I'm so tired of microwaved food.

21 Pounds

Hey!!! I'm still here. I've managed to get everything I gained over the holidays off plus a teeny bit more. I'm hoping for a ten pound month this month. We'll see.