Starting All Over Again

How do the lyrics go? "Starting all over again is gonna be rough for us, but we gonna make it." I'm going to change them to "Starting all over again is gonna be rough for me, but I'm gonna make it." I can't believe I'm actually going to put myself out there again, but here I go.

I am again almost to the scary number. I am 5'8.5" tall. I have a medium frame. My skinny weight is 140 pounds. I have not weighed that since before I had Brenna (who is 12). I don't know if I can even envision myself that weight. I can wish for it though. I need to lose almost 60 pounds. That is an entire elementary school child! How did I ever let myself get this heavy. I HATE THIS!

I'm afraid to lose weight again because I have done it so many times. You know the definition of insanity - doing the same behavior over and over and expecting a new result. I have to do this differently than I have done it in the past or I will just gain it all back AGAIN.

I know that part of the change I need to make is to add exercise into my routine. Whitney came over a week ago and set up an exercise routine for me. I will get up every morning early enough to do a full thirty minutes of exercise at least 5 times a week. I'm sure that I need to do more than that, but that is all I can promise now.

I'm not going to make any other goals this week. That is my one goal to achieve. I am going to change my life one goal at a time.