I'm changing, re-arranging.....

I haven't posted for a LONG time, but I wasn't kidding when I said I was going to give this weight loss thing another shot. I'm just doing it a new way. I've heard that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting another result. (If that is the case, then I am certifiably insane.) My mom and dad introduced me to this book. It is called He Did Deliver Me From Bondage and it is by Colleen Harrison. I have spent that past couple of months reading the book and journaling as it suggests. I am not even half-way through it. If you know me well, you know that is surprising because it is a pretty small book and I am a voracious reader. But this is not just about reading. It is about reading and comprehending and pondering and journaling and reading again. I LOVE this book. It speaks to my heart. It is helping to open my heart and my soul so that Jesus can help me change. I can not do it myself. I have proven that too many times to count. I love my Jesus. I believe in Him and His ability to save me from my sinful nature, but I have never understood how to allow Him to save me from my negative behaviors. I am learning. If you want a good book to read, order this one! It rocks. I've lost 26 pounds, but that is no longer my focus. It's just a very welcome side effect of learning to live through the Holy Spirit and listen to His counsel. I have a long way to go, but I can see that it is possible with Christ.

Repentance

Well, I'm embarrassed to say it, but I'm giving this losing weight thing another shot. I can't just give up. I'd like to, but if I do, I will weigh 300 pounds and not fit through my front door.

I'm unwilling to be neurotic. When I lose weight because I'm neurotic, I just gain it back when I stop being neurotic, so that's out. I'm unwilling to do any kind of crazy starvation diet, so that's out. I'm over the "lose 25 pounds in a week" diets, so that's out. I guess it is back to weight watcher's I go. I like WW because I can eat anything I choose as long as I don't go over my points.

Someday, before I die, I want to learn to eat just like a normal skinny person. But, until then, I will eat like a WW client. I will try to resurrect this blog because that seems to help keep me in line.

We'll see.